CinTA mENyaKItkAN HaTy

i tau i ni la pompuan paling tak guna skali untok u..i suker carek psl dgn u,i suker tambahkan lagy strezz u..i tak perna happy kan u..i tau tu sumer..i mintak maaf lau slame setahun ni i tak dpt kasy u happy in any waes..i tak kesah la lau u raser ade pompuan laen yg bagos dary i..i terima aper2 pun u nye desicion..im prepare for it oready..memang naseb i slalu gni mcm..biler part i da sayang org tu sungguh2,ade je yg tak kena..semakin kiter makin lamer semakin hilang kaseh syg u pat i..kalau i tanye u,nanty jadi gado..ape yg i buat n ckp sumer salah pada u..u pentingkan kawan u jer..i ckp cket psl kwn u jer,u maki2 i..u nak side dorg sangat?i tau u kenal dorg lagek lamer dary i..naper i sanggup hilang kwn sumer demi u sey?naper u kater takmu jumpe dorg den i dgr ckp u..naper u tak ley??i bukan nak control ur life..i kasy u lepak tapi ble ade pompuan tu,i tak suker..asl die asyek2 nak tgk kan u jek..asl tak tgk pat amid ker,pat kwn u yg laen??asl mesty u??die pun ade jantan sendiri pe..cuba lah kalau u..ade jantan asyek tgk2 i,u marah tak??i marah pasal i sakit aty..i sakit aty psl i jealous..i jealous pasal i sayang u..tapi u tak tau..u cuma pk yg i ni sengaja nak carek psl dgn u..u pk i suker gado dgn u??gado dgn u i tak perna dpt pape la u..nak dpt u nye pujok??susah skali la..i pun sedar diri,i sendiri jarang pujok u..u lelaki n i tink u shud understand pompuan nye perasaan..smalam i sakit aty,nangis mcm nak aper,ade tak org pujok i ?takder la u..sume nyer i tanggung sendiri..u cuma pentingkan tdo jek..u for ur info i matae dgn u becoz i nak kaseh sayang dary u bukan i nak kena pukol,kena maki dgn u jek.. and bout ur bdae,lau u raser u happy dgn dorg den go ahead la..biar u happy n biar i sakit aty..i tau n i understand lau dgn i,mesty boring..dorg jek yg boley buat u happy..i ni cuma tau sakit aty u jek..i tak perna kasy haty u senang.i slalu susahkan idop u..as i said before,kalau u da tak suker n da takder haty lagek terus terang jek..takmu uat i gni..afta dis i have ti tink twice before i ade relationship..dary dulu,asyek i jek yg kena dgn lelaki..i da pk btl2 afta u,i wont let any other guys suker2 sakit kan aty i lagek..i wont let dem take advantage of me..ni sumer i da pk..cos i juz dun wan my history to repeat n repeat..tonyte afta ur werk,up to u..lau nak kal,den kal la..i da tak larat lagek.asyek i ajer yg mengalah n kal2 u..afta tonyte lau u maseh tak kal2 jugak..everyting end!i asyek pk kan sayang sgt pat u sampai i raser mcm i ni di perbodoh2 kan sey..seriusly ida give up on everyting..hidup tak bermakna langsung..tapi i tau mcm mane susah pun i kena tanggung sendiri.i still nid to go on n tak guna i nagis n nangis untok org yg tak menghargai..lastly i mintak maaf kalau i ade buat salah aper2..selame i cuba yg terbaek untok kiter..tapy too bad sumernye tak guna lagek..selagi belom ader org yg gantikan tempat u,selagi tu i maseh tetap sayang pat u...dats my promises to u..

i da tak tahu mcm mane lagik nak cakap dgn u..haty i sakit skali biler u buat gini..naper i boley cuba nak paham kan u tapy u susah sgt nak paham i..apa lagik salah i pat u??i nak carek kerja bukan nak carek jantan..i nak kerja ni pun i pk kan pasal u..i nak tolong mak i n i nak tolong u pasal motor..tapi apa yang i dapat sey??i tau u takot biler i kerja airport..tapy naper at the first place u kasi i kerja saner?i rela tak kerja saner daripada asyek gado dgn u jek..u pk la..selepas hary yg kiter klua on saturdae tu,i da pikir betol2 pasal kiter..i nak kiter dua2 setia samer2..trust on each other..i tau susah tapi cuba la pelan2..and if u can see,sejak brape hary ni mane ade i marah u biler u lepak dgn kwn2 u..ada tak i bseng biler u alek lambat from interview??ada tak??ada tak i kasy u p tgk bola pat kedai kopi dgn kwn2 u..ada tak??u nak tau tak apsal i kasy u buat tu sume??pasal i cuba nak percaya n paham pat u..kalau u kater i bnyk jantan,u pun samer..u pun bnyk pompuan per..tapi kalau keep on pk negative psl u,i ley sakit aty..n i binget sendiri n i will buat benda bodoh..i tau u tak suker i buat benda bodoh,n i tak nak pun..last few daes i was sooo happy wif u walaupun u ada alek lambat n kiter jarang boobal pat fon...pasal u da janji kat i yg u tak nak buat benda bodoh lagek..i take all ur words..tapi naper biler pat i,u susah sgt??sume org ade sejarah silam dier..lau u kater i bnyk tpu n bnyk buat jahat,den u look at ur self..u baek sgt ker??sumer org buat salah u..u pk lah kalau benda kecyk u tak ley paham,den its not fair to me..i try to understand u tapy u jek..haizzz...i da janjy pat diri i yg i tau i cuma nak kerja pasal duit!!i nak u ade motor!!i nak tolong mak i jgak!paham tak?kalau nak mengatal,bukan pat airpot jek,maner2 pun i boley mengatal..ni sumer antara nak dgn tak nak jek la u..u tau tak i sayang u sangat!!i tak nak kehilangan u...sebab tu biler da letak telepon,i mesty kal u alek..i kal u alek bukan kerana i mengaku i salah,tapi pasal i takot u kal org laen..n i takot u da takder haty pat i lagek..u phm tak..k la u its all up to u k..lau u nak kiter kekal lamer den i tink u shud noe wad u shud do...k la taking kare k..bubbye!!muakz

evEryTHinG RevEaLeD

smalam segala2nya da terbukak..baru aku tahu sape die sebenarnye mmang slame ni tak salah la kalau aku slalu pk negative psl die..smlm pat uma die aku tgk computer die..tergerak haty sey..aku pun tak tau naper tiba2 aku nak check sumenyer..aku dapat tahu slame ni die ade msn friendster n contact dgn pompuan laen..aku da tak buat itu sume lagek sey..and aku cuba nak percaya die tapi sumenyer da jady gni..sakit aty aku..terlalu sakit skali..aku pk slame ni aku yg jahat,aku yg gatal..tapi ruper2nye die pun samer..janjy2 die sume kosong..aku da tak ley percayer lagek..haty aku hancur skali..aku cuba nak maafkan die n luperkan segalnya..tapi susah..aku maseh tak leh terima ni sume..harapan aku sume da musnah..sejak aku terbaca tu sume,aku raser mcm aku da hilang org yg slame ni aku syg..aku da hilang segala2nya..aku raser aku ni bodoh!!skarang aku da tak tau ape nak buat lagek..peraaan sayang maseh ada tapy...ntah la..skarang ape nak jadi,jady la..aku pasrah!!!mcm gni la dulu mcm mane aku kena tpu dgn lelaki yg aku kenal..kenapa mesty aku yg kena???aku syg sgt pat die..terlalu syg..aku sanggupbuat ape2 pun..aku ingat lagek dulu.aku sanggup klua uma demi die..aku sanggup hilang keluarga demi die..tapi skg sumer da hancur!!perasaan sayang ni buat aku susah nak luperkan die..segala2 nyer aku buat dgn die sorg jek..and mcm ne aku nak luper kan die??terlalu susah!!!dary smalam aku asyek nangis jek..tapi die tak amek peduli pun...die cuma pentingkan tdo tdo n tdo...

soRRy DEaR

smalam gado lagek..past few daes kiter asyek gado jek..tak tau kenapa sey..i dun blame hym 100 percent la cos i did knew dat me too having moodswing dis few daes..nak kater uzur,tak uzur pulak..haiyoo..stress ah..smlm i mintak die break...i dunno y..sumtymes i will juz said it out without thinking any further..susah sgt nak control..but afta few minutes i will regret it myself..its not easy to be apart wif hym..although he hurt me,i will naver hate hym..kadang2 jek i ckp i benci die..tapi tu sume kater2 yg tak masok otak..ikotkan sgt haty i yg marah..entah la.haty i ni susah sgt nak bace..i sendiri tak paham haty i n i dun expect him to undeerstand me too..at tymes i will feel dat he dun love n care bout me..n biler i pk negative sume i akan buat benda bodo..i will do sumtyng dat he hate alots..but afta dat i feel regret doing dat..its soo complicated ryte???i tried to think positive but the wae die layan i laen sangat..all i want is his attention!!his attention is much more important den anyting else..

for u dear''i noe dis month i been very2 stupid..i asyek buat benda yg menyakitkan aty u..i sendiri tak tau kenape...secare jujur i cakap,takder 1 jantan yg ley gantykan tempat u..walaupun kadang2 i kater i benci u,i menyesal cinta dgn u n mcm2 lagek..u takmu amek haty..tu sume kater2 kosong yg bukan dary haty i..haty i ni sebenarnye terlalu syg sangat pat u n i tak sanggup u luperkan i even for one second..as i said,i cuma nak perhatian u jek..i mintak maaf kalau i da bnyk susah kan haty u..i hilang n tak contact u for one whole dae..bukan i sengaja nak buat gtu tapi kerana i stress sgt...abit,i sayang u tersangat2 nyer..i mintak maaf sume kesalahan i..i taknak berpisah dgn u...i nak u sayang i jek sorg..i tak nak u pk pasal benda laen..plz takmu busted i..i taknak kena mcm dulu lagek...i harap u ley lupekan sume ape salah yg i da buat..i promise not to repeat it..''

siak arg nabeh stress gyler arg..menyesal hidup!!!!

stress siak hidup cam ny...ape ako uat sumue nye salah..(sial arg)

cam nk bunoh diry ako siak..dh tk kuase lagy nk idup pt dunia ni..

dh give up arg..dh tk layak nk bernyawe lagy..ako doa semoga allah

tarik la nyawe ako cepat2 ako dh tknk idop lagy...menyesal tok idop..

bile ako maty 1 hary akan dtg jangan la kaw menangis depan mayat ako

jangan la hadir tok hary ako..ako tk menyesal ape yg ako kate..

dh tk bergune lagy tok ako idop tok selamenye...

-sedang kan kaw dh bersedie tok hubungan kite

-kaw dh tk kisah tok ako lagy

-kaw tk hargai nilai haty ako selamenie

-kaw lebih pentingkan diry kaw dary ako

-kaw asyik kate pejalanan ako semue salah

-kaw menyesal hidop dgn ako

-bende laen lagy bergune dary ako

-maty kan muhd fazriq

sial abes..cau cibai!!!!!!!!!!

b3trAyEd m3!!!!(third party)

for the past few weeks, i had a conflict wif my b00..

what an action she done to me..(oh i can believe)

she did everything totally wrong n hurtz me badly..

i did not expect that to be happened to me cause i

always thought positive about her but now??(oh god)

she turned me on..i had made a terrible mistaked

to myself..(shit)but now to me what past is past and in future

hope that u would not repeat the same mistake again..(please)

i tried to gain back your promises that u made it yesterday

but don't let it gone away just like that..

i always forgive n try to forget what u have done to me aygboo

please open your heart and mind to share your thinks out to me

i always be there wherever u need me and im here been wating for u..

your lovely abit...

HARD HARD N really HARD

it seems hard to explain to hym...i dunno how..my feeling really not easy..i dunno is it im the one who been tingking negative or isit i dun have any trust towards hym at all??or isit oso becoz i really love hym n afraid of losing hym??i feel dat everyting change..but i dunno wat it is??stress..ya..im really stress..i'm trying to explain dis n trying to tell hym dat i really2 love hym but he seems like he dun eva care or give a damn to it..may be for hym its like nuting and wat i said is jus for the sake of saying..i wanted to talk dis things out dat keep bothering me but i got no chance to do so...as far as i'm concern i dun want to let the relationship fade even for me now its going to....i will try my best in every way to handle and control myself..i noe dat 'ALLAH' is alwaes der n he is the one who noes everything...he noes how much n deep my love is even though he[ciko] dunno...i noe wen he read dis he will sae..'ah..mepek ah!' but atleast i'm relieved afta write it up here..